w. I've met a sweet guy, but he's not ready for me. He's admitted it, so we hang out and have fun. No heaviness involved. My goal is to hang out in new p

laces, meet versatile individuals, & open my eyes a bit more.

Dilemma# 3- I'm want to be loved by a man and then I don't. What I mean is that I enjoy being in a relationship, but I also like being by myself right no

is will come in time, but for now I need a 2nd job to cover my medical bills & yes, even with insurance.

Dilemma# 2- So my job is no longer fulfilling. I want higher pay, a bit more responsibility so I can grow, and the ability to work from home. I figure th

or shall I say he doesn't want to. Maybe he said that to get 'one thing.' Who knows and I need help ignoring him because being his friend makes me sad.

fe beat him up, and you would think the easy answer is to leave him alone. Well, it's hard to do. We 'love' each other and he doesn't know how to show it

Dilemma# 1- There's this boy, I have deep feelings for him, he's still not ready to commit after knowing him for 5 years, with a 2 year departure when li

ek straight makes you year for a hug and I'm thankful for my loved ones, but there's nothing like a lil romance. On that note good night!

s a guy, we love each other, we're friends at the moment, and we're taking things slow. I want it all now, but it's not an option. Being at home for a we

Hello followers, its been a few days & my surgery went well. One week latee my pain is minimal & I feel pretty darn good. My heart aches a bit b/c there'

during the relationship and it'll be a disaster. We've known each other 5 years and have had major ups and downs on both ends. What to do?

is life is heavy at the moment, which I understand and I really want to be with him in the future. My concerns are that he won't be emotionally available

My other dilemma is that I don't know what to do about the boy who's back in my life. He says he loves me, misses me, and wants to make a life with me. H

hey return.

Good morning followers! I woke energized on 6 hours of sleep and now I'm at work wondering why my coworkers haven't gone to lunch yet. I can't go until t

be #1 in his life...I have doubts. I'll post later this evening and have a wonderful day!

..it must be due to the rain. My surgery is on Thursday and I'm a wee bit nervous. As for the love life it's on hold. People talk a good game, but can I

Good morning! I haven't been consistently posting and I apologize. This is therapeutic, so I ought to keep it up. I woke up this feeling extremely heavy.

Internet guy...what a day!

My Saturday thus far: 1. Purchased city sticker for car 2. Bought bath rug & basket 3. Found cute jacket 4. Made killer guacamole 5. Was stood up by an

Apology Buffer...

It's been a while since I've posted and a lot has happened. I dumped my boyfriend. He said I worship the devil, he hates me, he wishes I would die and he called me a BITCH...WHOA! What an person angry he was...thank goodness I let him go. Oh yeah, when I met up with him to exchange keys he threw mine in the snow and said I hate you at the same time. Boy is he coordinated.

On to better things...
I feel better about my job. I've lost fifteen pounds and man, I'm hot! I've bought sexy platform shoes, bandage skirts and cute tank tops for the summer. I can't wait to wear my new clothes.

I got to put my foot on the brakes and release the gas. I'm going to have surgery in April, which means I will be out of circulation for at least a month. I pray for a quick recovery and I ask for positive thoughts and prayers.

I've decided to take an art class, start a look book and explore other interests.

Well, that's enough for now. I hope to be back in less than a week.

Ciao!

Happy anniversary to 2 of my best friends. I'm so proud of them!

Why do I feel this way???

He never demonstrated his love for me, but I believed him when he said, "I love you." I felt the same and hoped (with a minute inkling) it would work. Deep down I knew it wouldn't. Reality has set in and I'm ready to cry every time I think about the 'us' we will never be. My trust and heart were in his hands and this never has been my reality until him. I must take it back and not let him know this has happened. Why did I believe him, why did I let him in, why, why why? He doesn't deserve me. I must make a change and take control. I've taken the steering wheel from him and he doesn't know it.
Course of action:

1. Pray harder, more often and longer to the Almighty GOD.
2. Don't answer when he calls.
3. Never call/text him.
4. Don't respond to his texts.
5. Do not socialize with him.
6. Keep myself busy with things I enjoy.
7. Date HOT men.
8. Meet new people.
9. Hit the club and dance like it is nobody's business.

In time, in my heart, and in my mind he will whither AWAY!

Two more things: I found the most beautiful floor flamp from a resale shop. It has a raw silk shade in a burnt/rust color with beads on the trim. It has embroidered flowers and trust me it doesn't look gawdy. I'm also searching for a pair of boots at a bragain. I'm plan to go over night to San Francisco this weekend and I must look cute. Why not?!

I'm back after a good weekend. I hung with my friends Friday night, baysat my beautiful niece on Saturday night and yoga on Sunday. The yoga class was a trip...the teacher emphasized 3 times that she's studied for 33 years and let her know if you're pregnant. I forgot to mention this was my first yoga class and to make it even better it was free. Since I'm a chatty person I had to keep myself from talking during the teacher's instructions and chants. I plan to go back since it'll help me increase my range of motion, but some of the other class members must remember to shower before. I better get back to work.

"I'm telling them and I'm looking them in the eye and say I've had enough of it. If you don't want me in the job, fire me. But until then, shut up. Get with the program or get out of the way." --RNC Chairman Michael Steele, in an ABC News Radio interview today, to a group of prominent Republicans who have blasted him over his leadership. From www.politicalwire.com

It's Snowing

It's snowing outside and we allow the world to stop. "Not I," says nice glasses 1980. "I don't let no snow stop me!" I need to get to the grocery store and buy chocolate chips and brownie mix so I can complete my holiday tins. Here's the story, I made cookies and brownies 2 weeks ago, put them in decorative holiday tins and placed them in my trunk. Two weeks later the holiday tins are 'still' in my trunk! I saw one of my friends Saturday, but she drove and I forgot to ask her to take me to my car. Oh well, maybe next time.

I don't feel like going to work tomorrow and not because of the snow. I'm not up to working. This doesn't mean I don't appreciate having a good job, but sometimes I want to call off randomly. My life is so weird! Everyone else in my office calls off whenever they feel like it. I ended up going to the hospital Christmas Eve and when I called off work I felt guilty. There wasn't a reason for my feeling, except that I wasn't at work, but at the hospital.

I am going to get off here and prepare to watch the Housewives of Orange County; one of the best television shows ever.

Good night!

Build up...your wealth, prestige, confidence, momentum, giving, endurance, others, & your LIFE!

It's 945 am and I'm eating oatmeal while reading an article on nymag.com. What a great website to complement the magazine and I love the skewed titles.

Not cool

Not cool

Will take care of itself

Why am I here...

God help me,

Please...

I don't understand why more progress has not been made.

It's cold down here.

I sit in front of a window facing the Avenue...don't freak shows usually charge to be on display.

Hold on, corporate is in charge and they're a giant freak show in disguise.

I get it!

(There are imps behind glass walls with programmable brains).

Hello world!