Why do I feel this way???

He never demonstrated his love for me, but I believed him when he said, "I love you." I felt the same and hoped (with a minute inkling) it would work. Deep down I knew it wouldn't. Reality has set in and I'm ready to cry every time I think about the 'us' we will never be. My trust and heart were in his hands and this never has been my reality until him. I must take it back and not let him know this has happened. Why did I believe him, why did I let him in, why, why why? He doesn't deserve me. I must make a change and take control. I've taken the steering wheel from him and he doesn't know it.
Course of action:

1. Pray harder, more often and longer to the Almighty GOD.
2. Don't answer when he calls.
3. Never call/text him.
4. Don't respond to his texts.
5. Do not socialize with him.
6. Keep myself busy with things I enjoy.
7. Date HOT men.
8. Meet new people.
9. Hit the club and dance like it is nobody's business.

In time, in my heart, and in my mind he will whither AWAY!